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We’re on the way!!

Well, after a long BORING day of work, i ran out grabbed auston, went to our wic appointment, then stopped into the counciling center down the road. I had never been there before, so i talked briefly to the lady about what’s going on, and what they could potentially help with. She was eager to see us, and urged me to call their intake office ASAP. She was hoping they could get us in tomorrow. So i called, got it all set up for Monday, which was their soonest. It was nice to have someone simply listen to me and my frustrations about the situation! I know how our local CPS responds to mothers calling in, so i figure if it IS neccessarry, and if she hears it from him, that maybe something will be done that i didnt do myself. That and my precious boy will finally be getting the help he needs!

She said the things his dad is saying and doing to him is pretty darned abusive… I see no physical abuse.. yet. But she said the mental abuse is something that needs to be put into control now. Hopefully this will help him through his anger issues about the custody case. And maybe, if what im feeling is true, his father’s abusive behavior will put my son back in my arms, instead of his…

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Auston’s therapist

Good news today, the center i went to last week to get Auston into therapy finally accepted him into their program today. I went in and spoke to the lady, whom was VERY nice. I told her everything Auston told me, and she says he qualifies… Also, she is obligated by law to call CPS, because of the potential violence and Auston threatenening suicide over the weekend. (dunno if i shared that part already or not). Anywho, we’re on the road to recovery, and im thrilled someone sat and listened to me!

Over the weekend, Auston and i spent some special time shopping, and went to chuck e cheese! He had a blast! He needed some special time all of his own, and i think it made him feel great! Ive got one pic, that i need to scan, that he resisted because he wanted to play games lol! So he isnt very happy in it =( Maybe we’ll go back this week for Happy Pics! =D

Thanks for all the prayers, it really helped!

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More Interesting Confessions by a lil un…

Didnt have time to blog yesterday, since Auston and i were having such fun!!

After work, we headed to the grocery store, to buy dinner and afternoon snacks. He picked out several things, all of which i bought him, except one. He grabbed his lunchable, pudding and a small 6 pack of 7-up (the tiny ones). And i figured that was enough for the afternoon, and told him no to the fruit snacks. I didnt have a problem getting them, but it was the principal of the matter – You cant have everything you want. Well, he threw a tantrum all the way out the door. As we are standing in line, checking out, he continues screaming. And granted this is NOT normal behavior for him.

I turned around and asked him, if your dad was here, what would he do about your screaming? He bluntly (and loudly) said “He’d kick my ass”. Of course everyone else around laughed, while i stood there dumbfounded, embarassed, and apauled. Not everyone knows dad and i dont live together. I was completely and utterly shocked!

Well, the afternoon went on, we played in the bathtub since the pool was closed… And he started chattering about how hes a bad boy at his dads… And i asked him why…

He says: Because dad said if im a bad boy, he will make me go live with you instead of him.

Hmmph… Being bad means you come here… And he understands the concept enough to continue doing it at his dad’s, understanding that he would be here. Smart little kid. Sad that his dad actually told him that, and more sad that he will do it to be here.

Beyond that, we cuddled the evening away, eating and playing. He talked about how excited he is to help feed and care for his new sister on the way.

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Complaints from the lil un…

Today he comes home saying his dad is mean.. Nothing new. I asked him why… He said “my dad wont quit spanking me”.. I try to shrug it off, eventhough we dont really believe in spanking… Then he continues, “And he smacks me in the head so he wont leave bruises on my butt”… WTF. Hide the bruises and give my child brain damage. Where is the sense in that? Im finding a therapist tomorrow. Im tired of this saga.